Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Diary ~

tomorrrow early morning , 6.30am dayao photo session..
i've been joining for 3 years, but never take one...
but tomorrow maybe my 1st time to show up, fresh face
in dayao...i sure will be treated as the fellas who just
play but no contribution at all to dayao...cz never join
marketing drive , never attend a meeting ...and so on..
mm...nvm ~~ but thanks those who did a lot to dayao..

need to go the factory very early so tat i can see
those in charge of the materials...my thesis...start to
feel nervous...im too relaxing myself...too ~

mmk closing tomorrow....already no feeling ..~~
still remember when i was in 1st year...i involved
a lot ....multimedia especially..and i was the main
actor in the movie....really too much fun and felt
so proud of myself... after mmk, always walked
past bsg , looked inside who in...we always would
go back tat room when we were free...cz we
did spend most of the time when we were doing
our stuffs there.....ppl might ask y i changed to
become so active to talk....i tell u...becoz mmk...~
i grew ~

ok...talk about religion nw ..~ i got 1 question...
till now still not solved.... many christians did try
to explain it....they explain becoz they think tats the
answer ... by the way...the answer can be my weapon
to attack back...~

question is simple ~~ " why are there practices
whom the pastors use to annoint the people which
Bible never mention before ? " christians sure
know im indicating...for example , annoint by hands,
then blow ...then the fella must fall down on floor...
y must fall ? becoz need to accept the Holy Spirit ..
tats the common answer..tats the moment where
Holy Spirit comforted the hearts... but i've been
annointed so many times...really no tat great feeling..
my pastor told me b4...wait for tat....something will
happen...i did wait for an hour...ntg ...is ntg..~

As we refer back to Bible, ( i seldom read now )..
Jesus or other disciple never did tat also...they prayed
and did the healing....but no such annointing...~~ right ?

so i asked , the answer i got is new movement of Holy
Spirit...means He is also changing new way in the
new century... is tat acceptable ? it can be....

so can i ask also ....how bout New Age religions ? can i
assume tat Lord is now changing to build up a lot of
new age religions so that more people can be saved one
day simply because our God is loving us...sure i will be
scolded becoz i assume tat .....but my frens , how about
u assume the changing of the Holy Spirit ?

God is everlasting forever....changing ?...modifying ..?

Holy Laughter , not all christains seen it before, but
u may go youtube search it....or wikiepdia it

Holy Laughter
Holy Laughter is a phenomenon that occurs at certain Charismatic gatherings. Some participants (from a handful, to almost the whole audience at times) find themselves laughing uncontrollably for no particular reason, sometimes even to the point of falling out of their chairs and rolling on the floor in convulsions of laughter. This can occur no matter the topic being addressed by the current speaker from the pulpit-even when the speaker is expounding on such matters as Eternal Judgment and Hell. It is taught in such settings that this is a supernatural manifestation which indicates a special in-filling of the individual by the Holy Spirit. Although this phenomenon has been reported in isolated instances for the past 100 years or so, it first attracted widespread attention in the early 1990s as one of the typical manifestations involved with the Toronto Blessing movement. The most prominent individual connected with the Holy Laughter phenomenon is South African evangelist Rodney Howard-Browne, who styles himself "Joel's Bartender." This is a reference to the prophecy in the Bible in Joel 2 regarding the pouring out of the Holy Spirit. Those who are overcome with Holy Laughter at Howard-Browne's meetings are viewed as being "drunk with (or in) the Holy Spirit," and some do behave as if physically intoxicated, to the point that they are unable to drive home from meetings.

very long right ? i just summarise it ...means there's a spirit which never
being mentioned in Bible from 2000 years ago, but the Spirit appeared
100 years ago...mm...is it same like a new age things ? like my fren's religion
is also new , it was around the year of 1960..... we always say
tat Jesus is the only way...no others...becoz fact is not changing...~ but
why do the Holy Spirit change ? im scared....im scared tats not the spirit...
which my church now having it...i do prefer traditional way now...~~

im not scared to ask ....i hope all chrsitians ....just ask when u have doubt..
coz our God is true....not scared being questioned .... i still have some
questions...~ ask deeper...will help more...

Tuesday, January 5, 2010


very long time didnt touch the blog...~

life becomes hopeless ~~...where's the target ...
wat do i want now ~~ these few days worrying of
life after graduation...~ after tat , need to work,
but got wat job to do ...this is the final problem
that finally i need to face it... world is so competitive..
dont know wat to say too...im not strong to
fight for tat meat ... ~~ maybe now class too less,
always alone at home , dont know what to do...
even no motivation to push me do thesis ...just
getting worried...

the church which im attending i dont feel tats
my home...im a stranger there...very very weird
everytime i go...really dont want to go again ~..

now we are crazy for music, obviously , in the
sight of other ppl , just wasting time , no bright
future , meaningless... but life is for us to enjoy ?
or blindly go towards ur target but after that
there's nothing , maybe only money in front of u ..
but u have nothing else ....nothing else ...

after watching 2012 , maybe even u have money ,or
already purchased the tickets, if both of ur legs not
stepping in the ship , u not considered safe ...just like
now u havin a lot of money , but u not considered
saved too... i heard a story b4, a doctor told a pastor
tat he was very sad....pastor asked y ...he said now
he has become a doctor becoz of his parents , actually
he wanted to be an artist. we may see his success ,
but has he stepped in his ship ?

ppl may think im optimistic , happy guy....
but the time im quiet is more than the period im
laughing ... -_- ~ dunno how to cheer up